Big Day...

Hello All,

Tomorrow is a BIG day!! Tomorrow we will find out if we can move forward with our adoption. Andy and I are so excited!! Really...everything is looking good...but we just have to get the "go ahead" from my doctor. 8) However....one BIG prayer request for tomorrow is that my scope goes well. I am not anticipating anything different. We did just do this a few months ago. However, it is our first scope since our miscarriage...and my doctor just wants to make sure everything is looking good. I always hold my breath a little bit (just natural on this journey ;). I would continue to ask for your prayers over the details tomorrow....and that Lord willing we will be able to begin the process of welcoming these precious gifts (embryos) into our family. We are so very grateful to even have this opportunity. We thank you for all your prayers.

Kristyn 

Continuing the Journey...

Hello Everyone! 8)

So...I am so excited to just share with you that things are going well this week so far. Today my clinic   was able to get some information they needed to continue to the next step of our process. Yay! I will continue to rejoice at each little step! At this time, now my Dr. has the info he needs and has asked me to come in for another Hysteroscopy. My doctor had mentioned doing this after our miscarriage, but wasn't sure exactly when that was going to happen. Please pray that everything looks good. As you know...there is no reason that it shouldn't....we just did this not even 4 months ago....however...I do not take anything for granted. 8) My doctor likes to be very through...and for this I am grateful. So not a lot to share today...but things are moving. We love you all...and please continue to keep us in your prayers. 

A hopeful family,

K

Oh, the Joy....

Y'all...as you have travelled this journey with us, we have boldly shared with you our hopes, disappointments, joys and heart ache...all with the hope of showing that God cares about His children through every bit of it. We just want to let you guys know that God is moving in a very special and beautiful way as He is weaving this story together. I will not share specifics at this time (as I need to ask permission first), however, we would like you to know that we are in the process of another embryo adoption. We would appreciate your prayers as we work out all the little details of the process. Please pray for these precious embryos. One of the big prayer request is for the safety of their transportation to our clinic, that they would be safe and protected well. Please rejoice with us, and the donor family over the beautiful tapestry of a story that God is weaving together. We thank you for your prayers, and are so excited about this next step. 8) Thank you for always grieving with us in the pain, and celebrating with us in the JOY!!

With excitement and hope!

Andy and Kristyn 

A Change in Scenery....

Y'all...this is just to let you know...that I NEEDED something a bit more cheery for my blog template. YAY!!! The other one was meant to show the hard difficult mountain we climb on this journey. I think we GOT that loud and clear! This journey also has much beauty and there can be LIFE in it! Therefore...as of today...I am making this rather needed change! 8) Love to you all!

-K

Preparing the Mommy Heart in Me....Whatever Road that May Be

Hello All,

I will get the basic update out of the way first...as I know you are all waiting with bated breath. ;) I did hear back from our coordinator for our embryo adoption and there is really no new news at this time. We are waiting for paper work to be returned and labs to be done for the prospective donor families...so essentially we wait. I am so grateful to know where we are and although waiting is not easy...I am confident things are moving as they should be...and God's timing is perfect. So I would continue to ask for your prayers for the potential donor families, and for a great match. We are SO thankful for all of you joining us in praying for this process...because this is just as important as any other in the entire journey. We know what a blessing it is to have a great donor family...and we know that this piece is SO very important to our hopeful family. So this is where we are in the process for now.

So as we wait...the Lord has really began to nudge my heart to use this time well. I will be honest...I do NOT wait well...and (ahem...Yes...I know I have said that before!) can be a little impatient (Andy?...Care to add anything here;). I have been struggling with this "waiting period" as an inconvenience. However, I feel like I am being prodded to use this time well. Ok.....Lord...How?? To be honest...when you are struggling with infertility, and awaiting what will happen...you can feel like you are in a very big "No Man's Land".  I don't want this time to go by in vain. I don't want to look back at this time and realized I could have been using it for other things. So...I feel like God is asking me to use the gifts and talents He has given me. Wow! I don't know if you know this...but going through infertility...you can feel like you are "broken"..especially when your body is the one that is having difficulties. You can feel like you do not have much to contribute (let me be clear...there is no one in my life who has said anything to make me feel that way)...and all that is a LIE straight out of the pit of hell. It's like I am being encouraged to remember the beautiful, creative and special person God has created me to be. (I am just getting real here about some of the difficulties on this journey). So...there are a couple things that I feel God might be pulling me toward...but what I do know is that God wants to breath life into this soul and others who are traveling or have traveled this road. He wants to bring healing to the hearts and lives of those affected by the difficult circumstances of life. Sometimes this means pushing us out of our comfort zone. So, after a few brief chats with people I feel like I am being pulled back into my photography (novice). My heart is to use this mainly for families, families in waiting, and families who have experienced loss. Also, maybe to begin working on a devotional specifically geared toward those who are mothers in waiting (no matter what that looks like). Anyway...we will see what happens with all of this. I am sharing this so that you all can be praying with me as I walk this road. I am a mother whose heart needs to be prepared, to be made ready for her family, and who needs and desires to continue this journey well.

Thank you for allowing me the precious opportunity to share my heart....

Kristyn 8)

Pushed and Prodded....LOL!

Ok...well...sort of. So this morning for some reason I couldn't sleep. This is funny because...apparently I was fast asleep on the couch. My husband got me to bed and I slept for awhile. Then about 1 am I was wide awake...until about 3am....for no reason. The only thing that I could think of was that we had a healing service at church today...and I should probably go. Ok...where did THAT come from??? Seriously, THAT is what is keeping me up??? So I wrestled back and forth about going...and then decided that if I was awaken at this time of morning...I should probably do it. Maybe...ya know...God is prodding my heart or something. As soon as that decision was made...I went right back to sleep. Ok......then it is time to wake up. I get up and do my normal thing and go exercise (trying to forget the whole time that I am suppose to go to the service). As I am still fighting back and forth the whole time (because for some reason I didn't want to go...why, I don't know)...I told Andy that I was suppose to go to the service, and we could do lunch after. So....off I went.

So what does my priest talk about? It was about the parable where the master gives his workers a denari for their tasks for the day. Toward the end of the day, the master hires more workers and gives them the same amount...which makes the original workers angry, because they had worked the whole day for the same amount. The master did not cheat them out of anything...that was what they had agreed upon, he was gracious and fulfilled his promise to all his workers, and provided graciously for them all. My priest then begins to talk about our attitude, when things seem unfair...but God gives graciously to us all. I totally saw my self as one of the early workers who would have thought it wasn't fair that those who worked an hour got the same as the ones who worked all day.....and that's when it hit me...I was meant to be there.

Let me bring it around to how it hit me. As you all know, our journey has not been easy...and it is no secret that I have had difficulties with my attitude at certain times during this process. Being brought to the healing service this morning...I thought I was being drawn there for my infertility issues (which I did pray about), or our future children (which I also prayed about)....but what was glaringly apparent...was that I have felt slighted by God. I have felt robbed...and THAT is what has needed healing. This deep part of my soul needs to be touched and healed and I can NOT judge how God decides to express His generosity towards us or anyone else...because even though I did not realize it...He is doing that for me and Andy. He has NOT robbed us. He has been faithful. He will continue to be faithful. This journey is so much bigger than I realized. He wants ALL of me. So....that is where things are today. I hope that this makes sense in some sort of way.

We thank you as always for your prayers as we wait for our match.

Grace and Peace to you all,

Kristyn

Autoimmune testing...And the Official Negative Pregnancy Test

Hello All,

There still isn't much new news these days. However, at our follow-up meeting with our doctor...we decided to run a LOT of blood test to check and see if I had any autoimmune issues going on. I had to wait until today to get the test done after our miscarriage...so the day is finally here. I am sharing this with you so that y'all can be praying. My prayer is that if there are any "extra" underlying issues...that they would be discovered....and that if they are discovered, they are problems that CAN be "fixed". Also....today is the day that should be the "official" negative pregnancy test. At our last appointment my pregnancy hormones were still in my system (which is normal)....and finally they should be back to zero. That is a weird feeling to have it take almost two months to return your body to a "non" pregnant state.
Thank you to all of you who are following our journey. We appreciate and value your prayers so much! Also...we continue to pray that my body would be able to successfully carry a pregnancy, as we look forward to another embryo adoption.....and I promise...we will share when that match happens! 8)  We love you all very much!

Oh! I forgot to mention that they allowed me to go back to my previous birth control pills...so that is a PRAISE!! 8) I am feeling so much better!

Many Blessings to you All!

Kristyn